sksk237's Blog

I'm 15 and I'm still scared to admit to everyone that i'm gay. Its two freaking words that are harder to say that " I do" or "I love You." I mean seriously, why the heck did it have to be me. I always wanted to be normal, but apparently, god or whoever runs this place, has one heck of a sense of humor. I have to go through the criticism, torture, and most of all the disappointment that comes with being gay. I'm waiting for my family to at least acknowledge that gay people are people too, but that day is far from here. They always joke around about how "fags" are going to hell and all these jokes about gay people. They expect me to laugh, so I do, but everytime I do I think I die a little inside. There's no one to talk to, only the internet  buddies I have made. But I need somebody to talk to. I want to at least know somebody who is gay. I don't want to end up unmarried, loveless, and lonely. I want to live happily, without disappointing everybody. What in the world am I supposed to do. Maybe this will all get easier once I get out of the house. I seriously don't want to become depressed or even suicidal.